Being in love…

On the heart, on matters of the heart  I have loved mostly because I received very little of it.  Love seemed to be the only way I thought it would be possible to be . To be love and not receive love can be quite draining but for a child it can be just about the only way to survive.  I only loved because even thou there was a lot pain around e it came from love a need of receiving it.  Need of feeling it because of love we endured we survived.  It didn’t cost much to say to a child ‘I love you…’ Continue reading

In light matters are weightless…

What to say it’s been a while since a have even written about anything.  It’s been so for a good reason.  Well I have been quite unwell for the last four months with Helicopter Pilory a bacteria which can be quite live changing and difficult to live with.  Yet we endure as we look to adapt and evolve and transcend it.  Just feel good about being able to express myself here in this space.  So grateful to say hello in this space called the web. This blog and know that someone somewhere might read it and resonate or totally connect with the energy of what your saying or maybe perhaps no one will read this and that is cool cause I still feel connnected such as being connected to the universe or just exchanging some energy with myself alone in my blog in my room.  Who knows… Continue reading

Returning from the unknown…

Just want to apologise on the huge delay in posting this story.  I hope to make another post explaining but in short life has been quite full of events and demands.  I am so grateful that some of you have still continued visiting the blog and reading the posts.  Also I want to thank you for your support with your comments and your patience you know who you are!   I will be feeling you in on most of my  personal development and other experiences and hope to keep on inspiring you and sharing some of my journey specially the crazy moments and the ones that leave you wondering wtf is she on about.  I’d love also to hear from you and your personal development stories ideas… I love you to share, so what have you been up to?  I wonder what experiences you have been through.  There is so much to learn and see to your words and mine lets connect. It can be here or there anywhere in here or in never land in dreams, you know what I mean? Or just on the web share with me people I want to hear from you.  I want your love and your stories, lets relate…   Eternally grateful to have this opportunity to connect. x Namaste!

 

 

Return to the Ayahuasca workshop…

On the way to the workshop it was though to get a cab to where I needed to go so it took lots and lots and lots of phone calls to make myself understood about where exactly I was going which is Hein boeicoposeweg I think that is how it is called. But it was hell to talk to six different Dutch people who didn’t have a clue of what I was saying! Damn that took me to hell and back… I was afraid I would get lost. But then everything just went really well managed to get the correct pronunciation and got to the place! Continue reading

That it was my choice but it was very important for me to attend this workshop and that a lot of work had gone into making this happen… They were even showing me some of the implications for the events that were to follow – that I had come here to do work with humanity on this part of our development. This went on for about 30 minutes. Then I agreed to go then it stopped. I got up, had some tea, then went back to bed. Continue reading

Return to the Ayahuasca workshop…

My second Ayahuasca journey… I have to say, after my first workshop my life had transformed in a big way. I had not only been happier within myself and healthier in my lifestyle, my levels of well-being were on a high. I have to say the effects for me were prominent for almost three to six months – I am not sure why. Continue reading